Ho hum

I'm terrible at updating this thing!!  If you are truely interested in me, you can always go to my daily blog at www.kidsrealityandmore.blogspot.com  I keep this one going because I keep up with a few of my friends on here and have made a few friends on here too. 

Life is hectic, as usual.  I'm coaching volleyball right now, and shuffling all 3 kids between my schedule and my husband's schedule is interesting!

My Dad has done some plumbing on our new home for us and thanks to him we now have a new kitchen sink and faucet and my washer and dryer are in the basement.  We are set-up in 2-3 years to add a bathroom downstairs.  My husband has been working on updating our kitchen cabinets and we are one appliance short (fridge) of having all stainless steel.  We are also waiting on a new couch for our upstairs den, which should come tomorrow.  All boring stuff, if you aren't us!

The kids are good.  Adjusting to our new home great!  Sophie sleeps in her own room now and is growing so quickly some of her new clothes still have tags.  She's a Momma's girl through and through and sometimes that a little straining on all of us.... especially when I'm at practice and she cries her eyes out the ENTIRE time!

Other than that, no new news to report!

Frustrated, agrivated.... and trying not to be.  I want to get everything in order in my new home.  But my baby wants me to hold her a lot lately.  I think she's sensing my tension. 

I need to finish my Christmas shopping and get is all wrapped... but where's the time?

I can't even properly cook in my kitchen because I don't know how to use the new oven, and there's no dishwasher except me! :)  Hank's work has a bake off tomorrow and the first prize is $500.  I'll be up till the wee hours tonight trying to make my family some cash people... dishwasher or no. 

And, I'm supposed to be learning a new Christmas song even as we speak, but I'm not. 

God, please help me to look past the business of this holiday season, and this particular season in my life.  Please reveal to me what is important and what is inconsequential.  I want to honor You Lord in all I do. 

Tres had his first Thanksgiving Musical at his school today.  I was so very proud of him.  I laughed at his little antics... not being able to sit still... talking to the little boy beside him... waving at us from the stage.  But I also teared up.  No one ever tells you when you're having children, that watching them grow up is so bittersweet! 

It's That Time Again!

Hank and I made an offer on a house and it was accepted!  We should close on or before November 30th.  We plan to take a few days to paint and maybe tile the kitchen and one of the bathrooms.  Also move the washer and dryer into the basement and them be HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS!  So it's that time again... time to move!

Real Time

Okay, so I'm about to be real here and I want to make a few statements up front:  1-  This is not a pity party. 2- I am in no way unhappy with my life. 

Do you ever feel alone?  Is there ever a point where you feel like you've lost a little of what made you 'you' and special?  Somehow, I've morphed into every other mom.  Not a bad thing, as long as my children are loved and well adjusted (she says as her oldest son drags her youngest across the floor).  I just mean, there are times when I feel totally isolated in my 'mommy world.'  I try to reach out, but that takes energy that I find I have in short supply these days. 

My job, as a Stay At Home Mom (SAHM) is to make sure that the needs of my family are met.  Simple, right?  Make sure baths are given, boo-boo's are kissed, shoes aren't outgrown, and toilets are cleaned.  Feed them good, if not always healthy, meals.  Hug them and kiss them as much as they'll let me (not as often as I'd like now that Tres has informed me that he is 'almost an adult, Mom!').  And give them a comforting (and sanitary) place to come when life throws them a curve ball... or Abby wipes a booger on them in the carpool line at school.

I just mean the things that drew people to me in the old days, seem to be dormant.  I used to make friends easily.  Now it seems like when I meet new people, I'm never at my best and usually smell of spit-up.  Not to mention that having three children under five years and the circus that generally comes with that, usually doesn't inspire a person to want to develop a close relationship.  

The friendships I've maintained make me smile.  Traci, Crystal, Kelly.  I don't know what I would do without them.  But we are all in different places literally or figuratively in life.  My husband is wonderful.  But like any man, cringes when he hears "Can we talk?"

Is it wrong to feel dissatisfied with myself... but not my life?  Is that a contridition?  I see insecurities that I imagine were non-existant in my youth (and I can say that now that I am nearly 30).  Maybe I'm just thinking too darn much!  At any rate, there they are... my thoughts.